Saving time is sometimes just wasting time....

When saving time is really just losing time.

Back in August, I fell down some stone steps by stepping into a hole that a woodland creature must have made.  It was all in slow motion, my ankle got stuck in this hole and as I fell I turned my body over to land on my back instead of my front.  You see I broke my wrist years ago and am so paranoid of doing that again that I automatically turn to avoid using my hands.  Both ankles hurt and I got lots of lovely bruises and scrapes.  The right foot swelled up the most and really hurt, the left one not so much.  A couple of weeks later when the swelling went down that foot stopped hurting but my left one, the one that barely swelled or bruised kept on hurting.  I really didn't want to bother with the doctor because I'd have to wait forever to see someone and then they would send me for x-rays and tell me there is nothing broken, nothing to do, just wait for the foot to heal, approximately 6 weeks.  I "knew" this from other visits for myself or the kids.  One of my daughters was in competitive gymnastics, then wrestling, then rugby....I had spent a lot of time waiting for her Dr. and x-ray appointments.  I just didn't want to wait, I thought it would be a waste of time.

Now this left foot hurts when I turn it a certain way so I just avoided doing that.  Late September my right hip started hurting and just got worse and worse,  I hurt standing still, the only relief was in sitting or constantly walking forward.  I finally caved and called the Dr., of course, she wasn't available (Canada's healthcare is great but you have to wait a while to get an appointment)  So I requested to see the nurse practitioner, it took two weeks to get an appointment with her.  I get so frustrated, waiting for an appointment to wait in a waiting room where I'll catch someone elses cold.

The nurse prescribed me anti-inflammatories and told me to see a physiotherapist in a week, the anti-inflammatories didn't help, still in pain.  Just saw the physiotherapist yesterday, after a lot of poking and prodding and pulling my leg in all sorts of ways she told me she thinks I had sprained my left foot and had been overcompensating for it and ended up putting everything off-kilter and now the small of my back was all tight, angry and sore.  Aaaargh, it's going to take a while to get this hip better and then we'll deal with my left foot.  It is the end of October now....so the lesson is go to the dr. even if you think you know what they are going to say....I could have been better Mid September, now we are almost in November.  Just so frustrated with the time lost and wasted feeling bad.  Frustrated that my body isn't as resilient as it used to be.  Is this one of the new interesting things in our 50's, our auto-fix doesn't work anymore.  Looking forward to simply standing with out thinking about it again.

Lost and wasted time, I feel like getting older makes me more desperate to not lose any time. I guess I need to prioritize self care over time-saving and get over the annoyance that my body just doesn't behave the way it used to anymore.  Looking forward to embracing my new age, looking for some advice on how to do that.